JUST BEFORE I FALL ASLEEP

" JUST BEFORE I FALL ASLEEP AND WHEN IM REALLY BORED I... LAYDOWN AND THINK FOR A WHILE UNTIL I FALL INTO A SEMI HYPNOTIC STATE OF SUBCONCIOUSNESS, SOME CALL IT DAYDREAMING, SOME CALL IT JUST FUCKING SPACEING OUT. BUT I FEEL LIKE IM NOT HERE AND IT DOESN´T MATTER BECAUSE IM SICK OF PUTTING MYSELF IN BORING SITUATIONS AND CONVERSATIONS, JUST EVERYDAY BASIC SITCOM HAPPENINGS, SOME CALL IT THINKING BUT WHEN IN THIS PARTICULAR STATE OF MIND I FORGET TO THINK AND IT BECOMES STRICTLY OBSERVATORY. I NOTICE THINGS VERY SENSITIVELY LIKE IF I FOCUS REALLY HARD I CAN SEE SAMLL TRANSPARENT BLOTCHES OF DEBRIS ON THE OUTER SHELL OF MY EYES. (OR THE CONJUCTIVA). AND CAN ONLY FOLLOW IT AS MY EYE MOVES DOWNWARD. ITS LIKE, WATCHING FILM FOOTAGE OF AMOEBA OR JELLY LIKE PLANKTON UNDER A MICROSCOPE. AND WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES AND LOOK UP TO THE SUN THE BRIGHT ORANGE REDNESS RADIATES AN INTENSE PICTURE OF BLOOD CELLS OR WHAT I THINK ARE BLOOD CELLS. AND THEY ARE MOVING VERY RAPIDLY AND AGAIN I CAN ONLY FOCUS FOR SO LONG BEFORE MY EYES STRAIN AND I look away from the sun into a pillow and rub my eyes ward then i see tiny spheres of sparkling light (some call them stars) which only stay for a second  then as my eyes focus".